Frankly speaking, no, i'm not okay. It's like for one moment the hope was there, another it's all gone. How great is that? But the best thing is, I'm stronger now. Stronger in controlling myself. Yes, for one moment, super super pissed. But kinda think about it, what can I do? Nothing. Just pretend nothing happened and go back to my normal life. Isn't this what I had been thinking about too? Human beings are so so weird. For one moment, you really want it. The next moment, you wished it didn't happened.

Oh well, I'm glad I didn't did what i did last time. So three cheers for matilda.

P.s I totally gave up on hope, i gave up on trust, and lastly i gave up on ....